Why I started this blog...

I have had this identity probably since 2nd grade of the pretty, smart, fat girl.  Was I fat at 7 years old?  No, I was not.  That was the time where I started to hate the way I looked.   I had a friend visiting with her two kids.  As her kids were playing with my son, she began to tell me how her beautiful daughter was telling her that she doesn't feel.  I felt this pain in my heart.  I remember those feelings and this little girl is only 6 and in 1st grade.

I have carried this identity around since I was 7 years old.  I had feelings of being fat when I wasn't.  I had feelings of being ugly when I wasn't.  I have carried around this identity for 31 years and this is the year I plan to leave that identity behind.

Does that mean I am going to be skinny and have this dreamy body that I have always envisioned...probably not.  Will I be the healthiest version of myself?  Absolutely!   

I have made a promise to myself to stop looking in the mirror and hating who I see.  Hating this body that I have.  Hating the feeling that every time I walk into a room, sit in a car, walk into a meeting that everyone is staring at me...as the "wow she is so pretty if she just wasn't fat."  I am over being the girl who is pretty but......she is fat!

This is the year that I am the average girl.  I am healthy.  I am happy.  I am embracing the future and leaving behind what has followed me for 31 years...

Follow my journey on becoming the best version of me...