This morning my best guy friend and I headed to downtown Chicago, so that I could go to Nordstrom and find a dress for a Gala that I am attending tonight. I know...I know talk about waiting until the 11th hour. I just did not have the time to get a dress.
I got to the store just as it opened. There are several Nordstrom stores between my house and the city. I certainly did not have to go all the way to the city, but I did. I knew they would have a large selection and all the sizes.
Well, I tried on dress after dress and I felt horrible. I just wanted to cry. And that awful negative self talk started. I am fat. I am so ugly. OMG how did I get this way again. I seriously have not had these feelings for maybe 11 years and I hear I am again.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to ugly cry. I really did not want to go to the Gala. My best friend helped me not cry and stay positive. I found something to wear and while I do not feel great. I am going tonight and I am hopeful that it will be fun.