I don't even know where to begin. It has been a year?!?! Seriously where did a year go. The sad part is I am in the same spot I was in last year in regards to my weight. The exciting thing or positive thing is I am in the best place I have been mentally and how I am feeling about life and my future.
A lot has changed since last year. I found myself finally feeling "good" on where I am in life. My white picket fence life is not the same as others and mine is perfect. My journey is right where I should be.
I met a guy last February. I reluctantly went back onto online dating. I truly had no expectations. To be honest, today I have no expectations on our relationship. I am not sure where it is going and I hopeful for the first time in a long time that there is someone out there for me. I know I am smart. I know I am beautiful. I know I have a lot to offer and for the first time I believe it.
What I found was a guy who has been incredibly supportive and helps me be the best version of myself. I have prayed for this. I hope I am supportive to him as he is to me. I have always thought that a healthy relationship is one where we both encourage each other and support each other to be the best versions of ourselves.
So leaving food behind....
Where am I now? I am in the process of learning my body. Learning to slow down and figure out this PCOS. I have made a commitment to myself to go dairy free, soy free , gluten free, low sugar and limited meats.
There are no short cuts. I have learned food has healthy healing power. I am working to make a food a fuel and nothing more. I am committed to being the best version of myself.